Reflections: When The Teacher Becomes The Student

   
    In the world of duality,  achieving a state of non-duality has been a challenge for me.  I read, I listen, I contemplate, reflect and meditate.  Then suddenly, without warning, a light turns on.   I look up and see a most profound non-duality...an action through non-action experience has taken place....the teacher has become the student - the student has become the teacher.

    Returning to school - to a virtual classroom - was only the beginning.

    In the process of learning how to learn, I have learned how to feel.  This was quite unexpected as I had preconceived ideas of a classroom where only tangible facts and figures would be presented.  And yes, I am studying to become an interior designer, but this program wants it's students to know who they are!  Of all things! 

    Oh,  the Universe!  It has it's ways of making one 'do' what needs to be done.  And getting in touch with my feelings, especially now,  was the last thing on earth I wanted to do.  The Universe, instead,  saw it as something I needed to do.....a need to be met,  needfully....or something like that.

    Long story short, I am learning to trust myself and to trust others.  I am learning how to LISTEN.  I thought I was so good at it before.  Now I know, before I was only barely listening...and to think of all that I have missed...aghhh!  

    I better understand my need to be alone and the purpose it has served.  I'm learning to better trust my instincts.  My inner voice and outer omens are the means the Universe uses to communicate with me.  My purpose is to not only listen, but to ACT on what I'm being told.  This how I position myself to teach others.  I was feeling as though I had lost my ability to teach, until earlier today, I placed myself in the student's desk and LISTENED!  WOW!

    I have also learned that I have two very distinct and dominant needs: 1) To be challenged, and 2) To have a creative outlet.  Without these, I am little more than a wandering robot.  In fact, it was not until these expressions resurfaced that I recognized their significance.

End of Chapter 1.